As a human and as a man, we have wants that called lust. It is our inheritance habit as an animal. We have lust to reproduce our self. To make our kin still exist. I used to supress my lust in order to get a better achievement. But supressing is never easy to do. In then end, i end up with nothing but more lust. I got tired and release my lust with my own way, i let it free and then i got a notice that the essence of lust is love. Love make people feel lust. But that lust than overtake the way of love do. Like spirit and physical form of man. People are actually spirit, and then they forget how their spirit are and become used to life in this physical form. After understanding the real  love mean from the lust, i realize that we can not suppress the lust except we want to not l loving anymore. From lust we understand jealously, and from love, we also understand hatred. And from that understanding, i start to feel losing love since i have tried to supress lust many times. But i also realise that love is like how the spirit reproduce itself too. But real love doesn’t affected by the physical form. It doesn’t seem to like beautiful face or big breast, or slim body or whatever.

Yah, cm sekadar informasi saja, sekarang saya sudah bisa ke jakarta lagi naek motor. hohoho. Jadi kalo mo ngapa2in saya bisa berangkat, walaupun ga tau jalannya. Btw, kok jakarta tambah rame ya ????

After taking some breaks, I decide to continue to write things on this wordpress. But I think it is probably slightly different from my last post, since I have a job now, but I think it is great. Since I didn’t have special preferences for my jobs. I didn’t know it, i just asking it, or search for it, or taking it by myself. For me, working is like having fun because everything i’ve done or other’s did is somehow funny for me. I often stop and watch how others got like their job or start to murmuring their boss. I think it is funny when people do something that make something that theirself may have done the same things. When seeing people so like their jobs, i feel so comfort so i could increase my job performance to.

Love is the root of Patience and Patience is the root of Dilligency.

What is charith? Or I would like to say, what is love? Love is patience, have manner, fair and righteous, and neverending. Someone can be said have had love if thy have all of them, one i would like to focus on is patience. Some one who have patience must be someone that never give up on things but not doing things hastily. In other word, a man who have patience is a dilligent person. I said this things, cause i think i am someone who have patience but i realize that i am not dilligent. Why dilligent? Because a man can be called dilligent if he/she is patient enough to keep on trying and working on what he/she don’t know what he/she will be on. He just keep believing on his dream and what people said. No prove on what he/she will had be done.
Patience is like planting a tree. We need to keep watering the tree and fertilizing it. We keep on using our money to make the tree keep alive. It needs years to make the tree grow and produce fruit. And we know nothing, will this tree will produce fruit or not, we just believe it. After waiting some years, we will see that tree is producing fruit so we can eat it. Is it taste good or not. Should we wait the tree to let the fruit drop and produce another tree it will make more years and years. What will we be meet in that time, we will make a forest, but it will make much more time. If we patience enough we will be able to taste how good the fruit is, is our patience much longer, we may not able to eat those fruit that we plant, but our next generation should be able to, it is his right to eat those fruit or let them grow. Well, i don’t know which one is better, if the trees produce fruits more than the human can eat, is like rich people who don’t know how to spent his money, if the trees produse less, then that tree will be consumed like poor people who’s searching in the ground for remaining fruit, if the tree should produces the same as the consumer eat, than it will be balance. If you think being rich is good, then be patience, if you thing balance is good, be patience but stopped when you need to stop, if you thing being poor is good, than do whatever you do.
Every choice given is have a good and bad things. Both three are the same. Do as you like.
But, how about we wait a little bit more, the forest will make another kind of life, believe me or not. Don’t forget, three is also one form of life, may be there will be a time when plant, animal and human can live together without damaging each other.
Perfection is good, and patience is one way to go to the perfection. To become perfect we need to have enough patience or may be more than enough to search on perfection and becoming better and better than before. Life is like a circle, have no start and no end, even if we walkin our life again and again, it is to realize that we are on the circle. We just pass it again and again, that’s why, we need to understand it by keep searching on it to become perfect. Even if we would never be perfect, we should understand more of the perfection than others and can keep looks more perfect than the other. (lol) But the world are created perfectly so everything in this world is actually have been perfect since it is created.
I like wisdom, and i believe that wisdom can be achieve by being patience. Like to become perfect, achieving wisdom need neverending time. So what we actually need is to have neverending patience, even if it is hard to achieve it, it is still depend on how patience are we and how struggle are we to keep in patience.
If people like kindness, people should have infinite patience, cause if we have finite patience, we will have finite kindness, and everything in this world become finite.
So, to have unconditional love, logically, one of the prerequisites is have infinite patience. (Maybe the other will be need absolute truth and undoubtable justice, and something about manner) lol, it is hard isn’t it.

Well, i try to re-research about the Element of the world. I search it, and many of them said that the world consist of 4 or 5 element. But when i try to studying it myself, there are only two main element, from this 2, it expanded to 4, and from this 4, there comes 2 addition so become 6. That six element create two great power in the world, there are life and death. LIFE and DEATH are consist 4 of 6 element. Because of that i started to realize that LIFE (the element is FIRE, WATER, EARTH and ELECTICITY) were basically negative energy. That’s why, people need to absorb them. Negative energy is something that ussually people hate, but in the reality, people really need them. But, don’t take it wrong. What i’m going to say is, negative energy is needed by us, so we shall need not to wasting them. From where we get those negative energy? At this time, negative energy is easily get, where people easily angry at others and waste it. But, i don’t really know where should we get it in the next era.

What did i mean is like this. When a human angry to the other, that human is focusing his negative energy and release itm and the other human which become the object of his angriness, will receive it. So if the other not reply the angriness, he will become stronger, but if both of them reply, both of them lost their negative energy. Negative energy is something like fear, angriness, sad, tears. Mean while, when we laugh, smile, thinking of happiness, we release our positive energy, and keep the negative energy as ours, and then we will feel better. Do you get what i mean?

The purpose of this is, we should keep thingking positively and doing positive energy, if someone appraise us, appraise he/she back, or we would receive those positive energy. We shouldn’t think of negatively, when people make us angry, don’t waste our negative energy, cause we have receive it, we should forgive them or make them more happy. But, even if we life like that, there are one warning, the more energy level we have, the more hard to control the energy outcome. But, if our energy level is highly enough, people which have lower energy level will be attracted to us. hohoho.